God's Funny and Mysterious Ways...

So, yesterday I was taking a stroll through the park. My heart has not been right, and I needed to get out near nature and just take time with God and pray. As I was walking around the lake, a song popped into my head; a Christian song from back in the 90s. It goes something along the lines of "I choose You as Lord of my life..." but for the life of me, I couldn't remember how the next line went. Minutes went by, and the line was still repeating in my head over and over again, which is absolutely maddening when you have a song stuck in your head but you only know one line! Finally, I couldn't take it anymore and I sat on a bench and whipped out my iPhone because I had to know what this next line was. So, I Googled the lyrics and couldn't seem to find the song, but the key words in the lyrics brought me to an ebook that caught my eye. The author was writing about an experience she had where a man she was interested in had asked her out on a date. The author immediately went to God in prayer and wanted nothing but His will in the situation. Once in the relationship, she set boundaries for her temptations because of her love for God. Her primary focus was to live for God, even at the detriment of her own hopes, desires, and dreams.

As I was reading, this woman's love for God both challenged and convicted me and I suddenly realized that I do not have that measure of love for the Lord like this woman did. Her desire was more for the Lord than marriage or a relationship, and though it stung, I realized that my desire is more for a marriage or relationship than for the Lord. What a heart change I had yesterday!

Of course, after reading that small excerpt from the ebook for about five or ten minutes, I still didn't know the correct lyrics, but the song was no longer stuck in my head. God was using a song that had nothing to do with singleness or relationships to bring me to a book that challenged my view on singleness and relationships.  And now that I have finally Googled the correct lyrics, how fitting they are!

I choose You as Lord of my life
Be Lord of my days
Be Lord of my nights
I trust in You to meet my needs
I'm choosing You who first chose me